Sick

Much like the Tea Baggers and taxes, I'm pretty sick of myself.  Somewhere along this journey I've devolved into someone I have a hard time recognizing.  I don't talk about it all.  More accurately, when I do talk about it at all it usually involves a good deal of yelling and screaming as pent up frustrations come flooding out in a rush of misplaced anger.  So, like I said, I don't really talk about it.  The rest of the time I try not to let it show.  But it does show.  It shows up in how I approach most everything.  I'm not happy about it or me.

There's one thing to do.  Change it.

So much for WYSIWYG any more.  That was the way and that need to be the way again.  I don't assume it will be easy.  I'm sure I'm going to sabotage myself along the way, but enough is enough and it is time to find me again.

Who know if I'll keep at this on here.  Recent history shows that it ain't likely.  Of course, its not like anyone reads this anymore anyway.  But, this isn't for you.  Its for me.  It ought to be a good ride one way or another. 

A whole damn year

That's how long it has been since I visited my own blog. Where the hell did that go? I guess between TSE #1 and baby #2 and an Iron Cross take over and 20 more lbs of Kuhndog to love it all just went. Hell with stats like that maybe I just swallowed it in the feeding frenzy.

Spring has sprung, the grass has ris, I wonder where my fitness is. More like I wonder where my toes is from the looks of things - it ain't no wonder where the fitness is.

I did ride a bunch in Feb. thanks to another awesome Power On Camp down in South Carolina. Seven days of killer riding put me in a bit of hurt, but after those 20 hrs I was feeling better on day 7 than any other time during the week - "flying" even. Then I've ridden about 10 times since. Nice consistency.

Next weekend is the Endurance MTB camp on the TSE trails. I'm looking forward to the trip and luckily camp is small. I've not yet put a lot of time into pushing it, but that'll come when I'm ready. It will be four days of stellar riding and hopefully I'll figure out my Hero cam so I actually have space and battery power when I want it for some post-camp/pre-TSE footage.